expr:class='"loading" + data:blog.mobileClass'>

Remembering My Son, Remembering God's Blessings






October 22, 2011.......my son, Levi, was due to be born.  He was 21 weeks along when he died inside of me.  We do not know how or why.  But, I know that he never felt cold or hungry.  He never felt pain.  He never felt sad or angry.  He is in a perfect world, with his older brother.

I have learned through this that finding blessings in everything, even death, is essential.  Not only does it help me to cope, but, it is what God requires.  It isn't easy!

My initial response to my son's death was that I never wanted to be pregnant again!  But, there is something about losing a loved one that brings me closer to Him than I ever have been before.  That is what I cling to.  That is the blessing I dwell upon the most.

I have never felt His love more than when I lost my two little ones.  His comfort was so evident in my hurting life, that I was able to find joy, as strange as that may sound.  He is my Hope.  He is my Redeemer.  How lost and angry I would have been without Him!





I am trusting Him.  I may never know why He allowed these two precious boys to be taken from us.  But, I have to lean on His guidance.  I miss my little Gabriel and Levi.  I still ache to hold them.

I think of them often, in heaven, together.  I like to think that big brother Gabriel is looking after his little brother.  I picture him taking Levi by the hand, leading him to see his precious Savior.

One day, one day........



9 comments:

  1. Blessings to you. Though I never lost a baby that far along, I have lost several earlier in pregnancy. I am so sorry for your loss but am blessed to see to see your heart. May you be filled with hope as you lean on the Lord.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thank you for your sweet and encouraging comments!

    ReplyDelete
  3. These anniversaries are hard. The blessing of God's peace makes the wait until we are with our little ones again so much easier. God bless you, Susie.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Thank you, Jen! I see that you have one in heaven as well. May we spur one another on until that day!

    ReplyDelete
  5. It's so good to "meet" you! I'm stopping by via the Blog Bash 2011... have a BLESSED weekend!!

    ReplyDelete
  6. Thank you, Ashley! It is great to meet you as well!

    ReplyDelete
  7. I am also meeting you via "Blog Bash," and just wanted to say I have enjoyed glancing over your blog a little today. I'm sure I will be back. Also, wanted to send you a hug as you remember your lil ones that are with the LORD. I understand about finding joy in Him even through the really hard times. I have claimed as my life's verse Nahum 1:7 which says, "The LORD is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; and he knoweth them that trust in him."

    ReplyDelete
  8. Amen Curly Girl. I love that verse! Thank you for visiting and leaving encouraging comments! Besides, us natural curly haired girls have to stick together, right?

    ReplyDelete

I would love to hear from you! Your sweet comments are always appreciated!

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...