Although each devotion is something I have struggled with personally at one time or another and have overcome, I have been blasted with the old lie of feeling unworthy to write this ebook.
There are so many blogs and people that portray themselves as being perfect people, perfect wives with perfect marriages and perfect children. Perfect homes, perfect homesteads, perfect animals, perfect diets, perfect gardens. I let those misconceptions and lies bleed into my soul.
There is not one who is perfect.
God has to continually remind me that I am not unworthy. I am His. And so are you!
So, my ebook was put on hold because of my silliness and insecurity of not being good enough in the eyes of these "perfect" people. But, I want you to know that I keep learning a valuable lesson. I learn more from someone who has been there, who has been real with her struggles and learned from them, who has received God's grace and is shouting to the world what a wretch she is and how she overcame.
I posted one time about how I enjoy being real, and am not ashamed of sharing my struggles. It is freeing to me. Even with that little statement a few commented with an in depth explanation of what I just said that did not make any sense, one said we shouldn't worry about whether others are real or not, just love God. And, another said something about doing away with Christmas and how that was being real.
Where have we gone? Are we so far removed from the simple(not ignorant) truths of the Bible that everyone takes offense or reads everything we say with a magnifying glass and a critical eye?
I have decided to finish my ebook. And, I'm sure there will be some "perfect" people who will find something wrong with the biblical truths that I share. But, these truths stand strong in my heart. I have shared each truth, as a homesteading wife and mother, as one who has been through each trial that I wrote.
I have been feeling suppressed and that is not of God.
I am not perfect and most of you who have been following me know that that has never been my style of writing. I am me, Susie. And I must say it was quite humbling to write about my struggles. I am making myself vulnerable to you all by sharing my heart in this ebook.
But, I also want you all to know that you are not alone on this venture of homesteading. We can keep our sanity, believe it or not!
So, there. I said it. My confession.
I have finished the chapters, now I am working on adding my favorite recipes/home remedies/tips to the end of each chapter.
I would love to hear your thoughts. What have been your spiritual struggles as a homesteader? I can pretty much guarantee I can relate!
Linked to: A Wise Woman Builds Her Home, Deep Roots at Home